I FINALLY got Prozac Nation the book! I’m in awe of Elizabeth Wurtzels writing. Reading the prologue of the book makes me feel a bit weary of the thought that I could possibly get back on drugs. How I used to sleep for at least 10/11 hours a day when I was on Prozac and tranxene, it sort of haunts me thinking about all that. To think that was only a few months back and yet I’m in a completely different place now from where I was then. I can completely relate to the way Elizabeth writes about how she would be tired in her dreams and wake up tired. Of how depression isn’t really just about how you feel about your situation. As in, I feel like most people don’t understand depression because they think they can just tell someone that’s depressed for reasons they don’t understand, or for apparently no reason at all, that they should just snap out of it. When it really isn’t that simple. Depression is also an illness. The chances of one getting depressed do not necessarily depend on the intensity of one’s troubles.
Anyway what I’m really looking forward to is more about her journey out of depression, something I didn’t really get from watching the movie. How she changed from waking up every morning and thinking that everything’s plastic and we’re all going to die to actually having something worth living for.
